Careful where you stand in this maze
Don’t reach out too early or stay still in the haze
Be confident of your thoughts
Be knowledgable of your black dots
Make sense of everything that needs to make sense
Listen to everything that needs to be listened to
Straighten up.
Cheer up. 
Chin up.
You’re almost there. 

It took me a long, long time to understand just exactly what happiness meant.

It took me a while to realize what it was like to feel happy.

I wake up every morning asking myself why I’m here. Why am I me? Why am I here, in this room, in this house, in this neighborhood, in this city, in this country, on this continent, on this planet?

I found the true meaning of happiness, but to be honest, I’m not happy right now.

I discovered how it felt like to be happy twice in 2011, just twice, when I went to a 30 seconds to mars concert, and when I VyRT’ed the MARS300.

They make me feel happy. At home. loved. Someone.

Especially the Echelon, you are what brings a smile to my face every fucking day.

Now the thing is, I do get happy about other things. But the only difference is that when I was at the concert, or when I was watching them, there was this feeling of pure happiness.

Like I’d found my home, my place, where I belong; With Mars.

If you’re not an Echelon you may think I’m quite delusional and pathetic. But wait. Stop judging and reread what I wrote, then think:

Could you really describe happiness?

Was it when your loved one kissed you. Was it when you held your child for the first time after it had been in you for months. Was it passing a huge exam. 

It could be anything.

For me, I think happiness is when you’ve pushed yourself to the limit; when you’ve given it all and you’ve succeeded. I’ve given my heart and my soul to the Echelon and MARS, this is where I belong, and NOTHING, and NO ONE will EVER take that away from me.

So to me, Happiness is when I’m here, with you, The Echelon, and with MARS.

Echelon, I really, truly, absofuckinglutely love you.